"Don't be sad that it's over, be glad it happened"

Warning: This post is incredibly soppy and emotional. I sound like a sap but it's all true xD

This last week has been a big one for me as a person. I know this sounds silly as I just met some youtubers and i'm claiming it has changed me completely but it really did make me think about myself for loads of reasons.
First of all, meeting Charlie and Alex was a massive thing for me as they are like idols to me. They are what i dream to be like, a 'famous' youtuber but still a really nice and normal person. The fact that i got to speak to them and spend the day around them was amzing as by the end of the day I felt as if i knew them better than just from my computer screen in my living room. Seeing how happy and excited Alex was by me wearing his badges and T shirt made me think how proud he must be to have something out that people really connect to. I want to be able to feel like that one day.
Another thing about that day was that I was myself, the normal me, the geeky, tired, lazy, nerdy, acne faced and strange teenager but with all these things i still managed to talk and make friends with two great girls, even after i was covered in fruit salad. This made me think that if these people can take me for what i am why can't I. I have, for a long time, longer than i can remember, hated who i am, my look, my personality, everything about me but if new people i have never met before and get to know are fine with my imperfections then i should be too.
Thirdly and most importantly, the moment i walked around the corner and saw Alex, the moment i spoke to him and he noticed my badges, the moment i saw and spoke to charlie, the live show and talking to Hannah and Clare after the show, the way I felt in those moments was so euphoric and great that i want to feel like that every day. Before this week i was a miserable person, i felt like the world was against me and i was feeling sorry for myself. But now, i just think back to those moments and think that if I make a go at things right now i could be in those situations all the time. Whether its meeting my idols, meeting new people or even making something that i am so proud of that connects with people, that feeling of happiness is so great that it is worth the hard work right now in my life.
The whole point of this blog is for people to see what i am really like and this is me. I am all the things i listed above but now i wanna change.
Now I am a happy and positive person who wants to make the most of the here and now to keep the feelings that i have felt this week.

I need to thanks a few very important people for helping me this week.

Most of all, James Ansell, one of my best friends, who went with me to London and shared in the feeling and emotion of the day and to whom i will always be grateful for going with me and being just as much of a fanboy (girl) as me. Thanks James *xD face!*

Thanks to Jack, Steph and Emily for putting up with me for talking about this all week and for not giving up on me in the last few weeks when i have been a miserable sod. thanks you :) x

Thanks to Hannah and Clare who helped me to see that I can make freinds, even if it is over a geeky obsession with 2 youtube stars. Can't wait to meet up with you again :) Thanks xx

Thanks to everyone else who has made this week so special, Chloe, Natalie, Zoe, Jak, Shefali, my family and thanks to you for even reading this long winded emotional whine but it does mean a lot to me.

James said this to me and it is how i will remember this week, "Don't be sad that it's over, be glad it happened" and how glad i am :)

Thanks :) xx